I really can't emphasize enough how lucky I am to have the spouse I have. I want to cut off my hair, or stay home for days in my pajamas because that's the only thing I can comfortably wear, I am not up for social activities because I am feeling emotionally drained from all the poking and prodding, or recent news that once again it didn't work, he's all hey no problem, is there anything I can do for you? I am having a meltdown and he drops everything and anything to comfort me. I truly feel like we are on this journey together, and I can't imagine not having him with me every step of the way. When I don't feel like living anymore, he gives me a reason to. This journey has been heart wrenching, but it has also brought us closer together. I must admit that before this process began we were solid, and that has only grown with the challenges we have come through. It's easy to see how couples could struggle through this process and even separate, but one thing and maybe the only thing I know for certain is that we are stronger then ever, and can get through anything so long as we have each other. He is what I am most grateful for, and I know that if this fertility journey that is coming to an end doesn't go as we hope, we will have each other and that is what is the most important.
Cooking truly helps me stay grounded and gives me something positive to focus on as I try to create delicious meals that will nourish us. I find there is currently so much in my life I feel like I have no control over, but food gives me something I can control and yet be creative and have some fun with. Sometimes I totally flop and that's okay! Luckily I have sweetie who is very open to trying new things and eats anything I put in front of him with a smile on his face (for the most part). He never complains, even when I bomb a recipe or experiment, and just seems happy that I have gotten exploratory with food. When we met I was strictly a meat and potatoes kind of girl with limited options and no sense of adventure to try new things, so it has been quite a process of growth for me, one that has enhanced our life (or so I like to think).
This Slow Cooker Creamy Tomato Basil Tortellini Soup is a fav in our house! I have never liked tomato soup, but this recipe was a game changer for me. It's an awesome crock pot dish, and you can change it up by using different tortellini. I have done it with cheese filled and prosciutto filled, and you can add as little or much of the tortellini as you like. My fav is a large package of cheese tortellini. It make a large batch so as soon as the tortellini are cooked I scoop out single portions into containers for the freezer, and then leave enough out for 2 meals for the 2 of us. This time I didn't add the cream to the batch I put in the freezer, just the batch we were eating fresh. I like it even without the cream, so you can definitely get away with making this soup dairy free if that is your preference. Just skip the cream and use beef or prosciutto filled tortellini, and don't garnish with grated Parmigiano Reggiano. Trust me it's delicious even without the dairy. The freshness of the basil is such a good pairing with the tomato and the texture of the tortellini sets it apart from standard tomato soup.
We serve it with fresh biscuits or some sliced foccacia bread dipped in oil & balsamic.
I like to serve it with some fresh grated Parmigiano Reggiano cheese. A little tip: we get a block of Parmigiano Reggiano at Costco and I grate it and keep it in the freezer in a ziplock bag and take out what I need when I need it.
We had these alongside some roasted carrots, beets, and cauliflower. I just love to roast any and all veggies. I just toss them in olive oil seas salt & pepper, and pretty much every veggie comes out tasting awesome when roasted in the oven at about 400 degrees!
I've learned a lot this year... I've learned that things don't always turn out the way you planned or the way you think they should. And I've learned that there are things that go wrong that don't always get fixed or put back together the way they were before. I've learned that some things stay broken, and I've learned that you can get through bad times and keep looking for better ones, as long as you have people who love you. ~Jennifer Weiner