Another chapter in this Imperfect Girl's life.Today's post is all about the symbol of the evolution of my journey to where I am today. Today I am rediscovering self in a whole new way.
So here I am making my way back home to myself... and what a great time to have a symbol that can remind me of the journey.
I had booked an appointment at Blessings Studio in March for my birthday weekend, and had to cancel because I came down with that horrific cold that was going around. I was super disappointed, not only did I spend my birthday weekend sick, but I had really been looking forward to seeing what Crystal would create. I finally got to re-book my appointment for today and it didn't disappoint.
First I will tell you a little bit about what led to this tattoo in the first place when I got it nearly 16 years ago. At the time, I had recently come out of a 7 year relationship that really formed much of my teenage/young adult years. For the first time I was completely independent, discovering myself, and who I wanted to be moving forward. I was at a place in my life in which I was letting go of a lot of anger from past hurt and coming in to a place of more compassion and understanding. At that time fire symbolized the anger for me and when I got my phoenix I chose cooler colours as a symbol of letting go of anger as I was rising up from the ashes. I had purples, blues, and a greens. It was about releasing anger and coming up from the ashes with a sense of peacefulness. Not typical colours you think of with a phoenix, but for me it was capturing a chapter of my life that I was moving forward from and it spoke to me. This was also long before Harry Potter and most people didn't know much about the legend of the phoenix, so people generally didn't ask about my choice of colours.
It seemed like for a period of time the pendulum had swung from a place of fire and anger to the other end of the spectrum to a place of water and peace. This was a good thing if you knew me at a time I carried all that intensity, but neither ends of the spectrum were really serving me well. I like to think in the past few years I have found myself in the middle. The past few years I have been wanting to have her revived, but I wasn't really sure what that would look like. Now rather than anger, the fire represents my inner passion, which I wanted to have captured in the resurrected version of my phoenix as I move forward into the next chapter of my life. Here is the before shot.
I knew I was ready to let go of the teal and have a more colourful pallette. I love purples and wanted a fiery aspect as well. Crystal laid out the pallette and started painting with the ink to get a sense of what she was envisioning and if that was a fit for me.
At first I wanted to keep the symbols in the center for strong spirit and Crystal played around with that for a bit.
We talked about symbols and how the symbolism could be there without the actual symbols being prominent.
I decided that I wanted the symbols there but not prominent. I know they are there and that is what is important. This piece of art is evolving, just as I am.
Once both Crystal and I were happy with the freehand design she took a picture which would be her guide as she tattooed.
Then it was time to get to work!
The beginning outlines
A helpful guide but only a guide, the real deal is perfection!
Often it is the deepest pain which empowers you to grow from your highest self. ~Karen Salmansohn